negatorization!!!

Over the weekend i realised that i see my body image in a very very negative light! *faints* That is so gonna have to change... lol. I guess its been since i gave up smoking as i have put on a whole 6 pounds in weight in the last 3 or so months... yea its not alot but ive always been the same weight, [give or take a pound or so] apart from when i was pregnant! So 6lb makes a difference to me. :p

Didn't realise i saw myself this way till i was on the beach on the weekend and im seeing all these half naked 'large' people and im disgusted...not with them, nooo im disgusted with myself..the fact that they are happy with their body shapes, made me envious. This showed as hostile moaning... oh so not good!
How sad am i?? Especially as i should of being enjoying my partners company >__< ..maybe its the start of a mid life crisis LOL after all i am 31.......

other blabbage... hmm if you have a pair of shoes for 15 or so years and never step in summit nasty, does that mean if you get dog crap all over your new boots they are unlucky?? Bloody dirty dog owners! meh... *i so didn't see the big poopy* grrrrr

forgot to mention i have a piece of my art in the
f*ck valentines day gallery
if you want to look. Im listed under ickledink. :)

Question of the day... how much thinking will it take to make my head turn inside out?
Answer: you might find out tomorro!